So, I didn't read this book. I had this book at home for days and I just couldn't begin reading it. I just didn't feel interested in reading it all of a sudden. I lost the motivation soon. And then, I saw Sakhi dissing it and I was like "Oh. That's another excuse to not read it." And then, I just didn't and returned it to the library which is a sob fest. .
Apart from that, I just need to clarify/ talk about a few things here. And I have done this before, probably. I cannot remember. So, I am a very open minded individual who loves to talk about sex, masturbation, human genitalia and you name it. I do it because I used to feel ashamed of these things and I was conditioned to believe (like almost all of us) that it is something that we shouldn't be talking about. I started to talk about it, make jokes about it and I made a lot of friends who appreciate it. But I have also noticed that talking about these things makes me look like a "whore" begging for a dick. So MANY MEN just feel so comfortable demanding sex out of me and saying vile shit straight up in my DMs (usually their first text being, "can I have sex with you?" or..."I wonder how you are in bed..."). JUST BECAUSE I DON'T FLINCH TALKING ABOUT SEX, DOESN'T MEAN I WILL SLEEP WITH YOU. IT DOESN'T MEAN I AM A WHORE YOU CAN PUT COINS INTO AND SEX WOULD DROP OUT. .
I just feel such a tremendous lack of respect everytime this happens. And I am tired of it.
And on top of that, apparently, I am not a nice person if I don't give them the sex they deserve. .
Patriarchy and its forms. I have been truly traumatized by it all my life. Well, fuck YOU. //