To everybody who has ever been with me,
for a second or two as friends or bff's,
and for those with whom i had built my dreams.
I know i'm chaos,
rude at times too.
Blabber mouth as is,
and unabashedly wild too.
These are phases you have seen in me,
pages of my life maybe.
I pushed you away somehow,
but that has knocked me down i realize now.
But if i ever consider you as a friend,
from childhood till today at 10:10pm.
Know that you are still the same for me,
i remember the times we were together and all the stuff you did for me ever so tiny as a pea.
I might not call you back always,
might leave your messages on read.
I'm chaos and destructive as such,
but to cause you pain is the last thing i wish to do as it would hurt me as much.
Know that if we were friends,
you will always be special for me till my very end.
But if i do not reach out to you before i go,
please forgive me for i have to face Allah (swt) too.
I wish not to hurt any soul,
for my judgment then would be harsh and brutal.
I just can't seem to hold on too long to people,
i have to let them go and i turn feeble.
I wish nothing but good for you always,
with or without me,
it doesn't matter as long as your happiness stays.
After my apology i have only one request to make,
even if i don't see you in duniya,
clear your heart for me and ask for me in jannah,
and let's be bff's there and eat unlimited ice-cream and cake. ❤