I need a break from the old insta because I feel lost in unhealthy patterns of depression, obsession, comparison, paralysis, sadness, fakeness, validation-seeking, jealousy, not-good-enoughness, an intense desire to connect, caring what other people think more than how I feel and good old fashioned self hatred. I'm not proud to feel this way. I'm kind of embarrassed to share it. But fuck it. If you want to judge me, or talk shit or roll your eyes, go for it.
I know it isn't all Instagram, it's me, but right now being so caught up in checking this app like it's as instinctive as breathing is making me fucking loco in the coco.
So ✌️out for now. I'll be back when I am more grounded and can appreciate this tool of connecting in a healthier way. In the meantime, I am just a text away.
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