What is your WHY?! I’ve taken sometime to just think. Why do I do the things I do, why do I run, lift, compete?
To be honest I’m still figuring out my Why, but for now I’d like to say because I have CONTROL.
I have CONTROL!!
I have CONTROL over my life choices, my body, representing what I preach, being a positive role model for my children, family, friends and peers.
Growing up I had it rough, really effing rough. I hide my past well. I wasn’t going to let events that had happen control my future life. Not going to lie, I now have terrible anxiety and at times can be traumatize bring back old emotions. But Control has helped me set goals, and control my outcomes.
Once I ran away from home. I actually RAN AWAY, like 8 miles or so to my BFF’s house. Where I decided I wanted and needed boundaries, rules and structure in my life. Since the beginning of my High School years I lived with a family that I now called my own. I was able to have a Mom and Dad figure that laid the law down for me. I then was able to continue running for pleasure and skill, not because I was scared or needed to escape.
Dated a guy(s) in HS that we’re really into making bad choices. It spread rumors about me that I was making them too. Although the words passing along the hallways hurt me to hear, I had CONTROL. I choose to push myself harder in sports and physical activities. I choose not to cave in to the lies and prove them to be true.
What I’ve shared with you is just a chip of the bottom of the iceberg. It would take me years and than some to completely explain my pass and how I somehow made it.
But I’m the end I’m the one in CONTROL still.
I want this lifestyle.
I want to prove that “can’t” isn’t part of my vocabulary.
I want to help other know they can have CONTROL too.
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