Sometimes recovery gets harder and you feel like you are spiralling. I feel like I’m just starting to pull myself out of that hard place. It’s so easy to get caught up in my head in a negative circle of thinking.
I’ve decided to refocus on the one thing that brought me out of my eating disorder & into recovery. Self love. Instead of focusing on what boys do or do not like me, what other people think of me, or that losing weight will make me feel better about myself, I am refocusing my energy on myself. I’m taking time for me.
What things make me happy? Where should I be focusing my time and energy? It was so easy to get caught back up in the negative spiral but this weekend was a reminder that that’s not that path that I want to go down. I have decided that from now on I am refocusing on falling in love with myself and taking care of myself.
My worth is not based on what a boy thinks of me. My self worth comes from self love, and how I take care of myself everyday. I have so many goals and aspirations and all that this disease does is take those away from me and suck out all of my happiness. So I am deciding to redefine what is important to me right now, and that is putting myself first and taking care of myself. Choose myself first.