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‪Still seeing the ghost of Indianapolis in this print though I’ve added a few lines that I’ll call roads.  I wonder why I like maps so much. Could it be that I’m just trying to find my pathway in life?‬
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‪Still seeing the ghost of Indianapolis in this print though I’ve added a few lines that I’ll call roads. I wonder why I like maps so much. Could it be that I’m just trying to find my pathway in life?‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery‪ #monoprint #‬printmaking #print #maps #oilpastel #oilpaint #poetry #timelapse #timelapseart‬
‪“I’ve known rivers./I've known rivers ancient as the world and older than the/flow of human blood in human veins.” —Langston Hughes ‬
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‪“I’ve known rivers./I've known rivers ancient as the world and older than the/flow of human blood in human veins.” —Langston Hughes ‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery‪ #maps #watercolor#poetry #timelapse‬ #timelapseart #timelapsepainting #timelapseoftheday
‪Are there cities whose maps include a sun at the center?  If not, perhaps there should be. Deep thought for the night. ‬
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‪Are there cities whose maps include a sun at the center? If not, perhaps there should be. Deep thought for the night. ‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #maps #watercolor#sunart #sun #timelapse #timelapseart
‪This could have gone better, but I think it has possibilities. Good thing engineers don’t use knotted thread as highway models! ‪▫️‬
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‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #oilpastel #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting ‬#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery‪ #monoprint #‬printmaking #print #maps #watercolor ‪ #oilpastel #oilpaint‬
‪This could have gone better, but I think it has possibilities. Good thing engineers don’t use knotted thread as highway models! ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #oilpastel #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery‪ #monoprint #‬printmaking #print #maps #watercolor#oilpastel #oilpaint‬
‪Back to names: Kira Makenzie Pete Raven Morgan Jenna Linda Hallie Suketu Mike Madison Diamond Jack Sophie Olivia Cosette Lauren Kelly Khrisma Libby Olivia & others I can’t even find. I need a map for my map!!!‬
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‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #oilpastel #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting ‬#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery‪ #monoprint #‬printmaking #print #maps
‪Back to names: Kira Makenzie Pete Raven Morgan Jenna Linda Hallie Suketu Mike Madison Diamond Jack Sophie Olivia Cosette Lauren Kelly Khrisma Libby Olivia & others I can’t even find. I need a map for my map!!!‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #oilpastel #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery‪ #monoprint #‬printmaking #print #maps
‪Another crossroads in oilpastel. Tomorrow might be watercolor unless I go indoor climbing. Yes, we all must make choices. #creative‬
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‪Another crossroads in oilpastel. Tomorrow might be watercolor unless I go indoor climbing. Yes, we all must make choices. #creative‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #oilpastel #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery‪ #monoprint #‬printmaking #print #maps
‪Yesterday’s post was so well-received, we have more hidden names today. Sadly my video didn’t work. Nicole, Emma, Megan, Hannah, Alexa, do you see your names?‬
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‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #oilpastel #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting ‬#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery‪ #monoprint #‬printmaking #print #watercolor
‪Yesterday’s post was so well-received, we have more hidden names today. Sadly my video didn’t work. Nicole, Emma, Megan, Hannah, Alexa, do you see your names?‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #oilpastel #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery‪ #monoprint #‬printmaking #print #watercolor
‪A #Valentinesday shout-out to friends—new & old—whose names are hidden in this drawing. Nick, Karen, Haley, Ali, Liz, Keith, Rachel, Rachell, David, Gage, Karen, Macy, Tina, MaryEllen. Do you see them?‬
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‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #oilpastel #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting ‬#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery‪ #monoprint #‬printmaking #print #ink #valentines #valentinesday2020 #hidden
‪A #Valentinesday shout-out to friends—new & old—whose names are hidden in this drawing. Nick, Karen, Haley, Ali, Liz, Keith, Rachel, Rachell, David, Gage, Karen, Macy, Tina, MaryEllen. Do you see them?‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪#LetterstomyMother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #oilpastel #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery‪ #monoprint #‬printmaking #print #ink #valentines #valentinesday2020 #hidden
Another tiny little bit of #Indianapolis somewhere in the neighborhood of IUPUI. #GoJags. Don’t be scared!  It’s a ghost print. ‪▫️‬
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Another tiny little bit of #Indianapolis somewhere in the neighborhood of IUPUI. #GoJags. Don’t be scared! It’s a ghost print. ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪#letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #oilpastel #cartography #video #create #inspiration #painting#paintingoftheday #paintings #drawing #drawings #imagination #imagine #artoninstagram #smallworks #artistsoninstagram #artoftheday #artgallery
‪Map of Indianapolis between 38th and 52nd and between Meridian and College. I’ll work on more of these in the coming days as this definitely won’t get me a job @randmcnally. ‬
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‪Map of Indianapolis between 38th and 52nd and between Meridian and College. I’ll work on more of these in the coming days as this definitely won’t get me a job @randmcnally. ‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪▫️‬ ‪#letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #oilpastel #cartography #video‬ #february #painting #paintings #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #red #draw #drawing #drawingoftheday #drawing✏ #inspiration
‪I was convinced that I would do something with the map of Indianapolis, but #inspiration and accident intervened with the application of #oilpastel. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #create #video‬ #painting #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #cArtography
‪I was convinced that I would do something with the map of Indianapolis, but #inspiration and accident intervened with the application of #oilpastel. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #create #video‬ #painting #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #cArtography
‪Trust me: the road may be long and rocky but it may also be this hot red color with great texture. Now that’s a piece of asphalt I can live with! #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #painting #create #cartography #video‬ #painting #paintingoftheday #february  #road
‪Trust me: the road may be long and rocky but it may also be this hot red color with great texture. Now that’s a piece of asphalt I can live with! #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #painting #create #cartography #video‬ #painting #paintingoftheday #february #road
‪This one is a total throwback to an iconographic style I developed years ago. Can you see the words Kansas, Texas, and Indiana? @iupui is hidden in there, too! #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #drawing #create #cartography #video‬ #drawingoftheday #hiddenwords #february
‪This one is a total throwback to an iconographic style I developed years ago. Can you see the words Kansas, Texas, and Indiana? @iupui is hidden in there, too! #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #drawing #create #cartography #video‬ #drawingoftheday #hiddenwords #february
The potential of a small envelope. 
#backoftheenvelope #letterstomymother #envelopes #lostart#mail
The potential of a small envelope. #backoftheenvelope #letterstomymother #envelopes #lostart#mail
‪If you’re new to this series: I started my daily #letterstomymother series on May 1, 2013, to honor my mom’s memory. Each month has a theme or central idea. This month: maps, transportation & movement. #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #cartography #video‬ #painting🎨 #painting #paintingoftheday #map
‪If you’re new to this series: I started my daily #letterstomymother series on May 1, 2013, to honor my mom’s memory. Each month has a theme or central idea. This month: maps, transportation & movement. #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #cartography #video‬ #painting🎨 #painting #paintingoftheday #map
‪Hate to disappoint those expecting Jag spots on this 31. I was too tired and felt like scrawling. This one required to to shout Wheeee! while I painted it. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create‬ #video #numbers #january #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday
‪Hate to disappoint those expecting Jag spots on this 31. I was too tired and felt like scrawling. This one required to to shout Wheeee! while I painted it. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create‬ #video #numbers #january #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday
‪Still feeling that @IUPUIdm Jagathon energy and trying to show it here. Maybe tomorrow my 31 should be Jag spotted. We’ll see how I feel. What do you all think? #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #january #numbers
‪Still feeling that @IUPUIdm Jagathon energy and trying to show it here. Maybe tomorrow my 31 should be Jag spotted. We’ll see how I feel. What do you all think? #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #january #numbers
‪I tried to go bright and inspiring today in honor of @iupuidm Marathon to Miracles. Those Jagathoners are both bright and inspirational! Thanks for including me in this great effort #ftk. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video #m2m2020‬ #paintings #paintingoftheday #numbers #january
‪I tried to go bright and inspiring today in honor of @iupuidm Marathon to Miracles. Those Jagathoners are both bright and inspirational! Thanks for including me in this great effort #ftk. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video #m2m2020‬ #paintings #paintingoftheday #numbers #january
‪Tonight, I went the simple route. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #charcoal #create ‬#drawing #video #january #numbers
‪Go wild with charcoal, add a splash of red, and you have pure gold. Can you see the 27? #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create‬ #video #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #ink #graphic #number #january #charcoaldrawing
‪Go wild with charcoal, add a splash of red, and you have pure gold. Can you see the 27? #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create‬ #video #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #ink #graphic #number #january #charcoaldrawing
‪More oil pastel tonight, but this one looks a little like it got run over by a truck a couple of times. Art can take us many places. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #create #video ‬#painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #number #january
‪More oil pastel tonight, but this one looks a little like it got run over by a truck a couple of times. Art can take us many places. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #create #video#painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #number #january
I’m getting drawn further and further into this project, but I won’t open the envelopes. 
#letters#mother#backoftheenvelope #years#kept#whenwewroteletters #postal#beforeiphones #letterstomymother
I’m getting drawn further and further into this project, but I won’t open the envelopes. #letters#mother#backoftheenvelope #years#kept#whenwewroteletters #postal#beforeiphones #letterstomymother
‪Why did I stay away from the great new love of my life—oil pastel—for so long? I love you, Sennelier oil pastel. I love you. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #create #video‬ #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday
‪Why did I stay away from the great new love of my life—oil pastel—for so long? I love you, Sennelier oil pastel. I love you. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #create #video‬ #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday
‪Looks like a different type of screen printing. Ha! Printmaker humor. 😂#letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #create #video‬ #drawings #drawingoftheday
‪Looks like a different type of screen printing. Ha! Printmaker humor. 😂#letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #create #video‬ #drawings #drawingoftheday
A different direction today. I like the watercolor effect better. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #number #january
A different direction today. I like the watercolor effect better. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #number #january
‪Each shape feels like it’s own little painting to me. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video ‬#painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #number #january
‪I LOVE red, black, and white design. Love it! #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video‬ #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday
‪Today was angry with cold, a blueblack landscape of ice and snow. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video ‬#painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #number #january
‪Today was angry with cold, a blueblack landscape of ice and snow. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video#painting🎨 #paintingoftheday #number #january
Have found myself in a new project. It involves a collection of letters written to my mother. My general rule right now is that i don’t open/read them.  But when i photographed this envelope it soon became clear there was a photo inside. It wasn’t sealed shut, so i opened it to find a negative, rather than a photo. It’s in fine shape of course and reveals horse and rider clearly. Stay tuned for more... #letters#post#postal#mail#time#distance#years#generations#backoftheenvelope #marks#dyingart#letterstomymother
Have found myself in a new project. It involves a collection of letters written to my mother. My general rule right now is that i don’t open/read them. But when i photographed this envelope it soon became clear there was a photo inside. It wasn’t sealed shut, so i opened it to find a negative, rather than a photo. It’s in fine shape of course and reveals horse and rider clearly. Stay tuned for more... #letters#post#postal#mail#time#distance#years#generations#backoftheenvelope #marks#dyingart#letterstomymother
‪There’s just something happy about pink and purple, am I right? #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video‬ #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday
‪There’s just something happy about pink and purple, am I right? #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video‬ #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday
Back of the envelope. 
#airmail#backoftheenvelope #letterstomymother
‪Why does this remind me of a beach? #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video ‬#painting🎨 #paintingoftheday
‪I forgot there for a minute how the number 5 is shaped. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #create #watercolor #video‬ #painting🎨 #paintingoftheday
‪Clouds over green fields with purple bird. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video‬ #paintingoftheday #painting🎨
‪Experimenting by filling up negative space with texture. Good possibilities here, but if negative space were silence, perhaps that should remain. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create‬ #paintingoftheday
‪Experimenting by filling up negative space with texture. Good possibilities here, but if negative space were silence, perhaps that should remain. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create‬ #paintingoftheday
‪Definitely remembering Mom today. She would have been 78 today. I continue to honor her memory with this daily artistic series started on May 1, 2013. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video‬ #paintingoftheday
‪Definitely remembering Mom today. She would have been 78 today. I continue to honor her memory with this daily artistic series started on May 1, 2013. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video‬ #paintingoftheday
‪And here we have the look of shattered glass. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video‬ #paintingoftheday
‪I always find comfort in these grids. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create‬ #video #paintingoftheday
‪T.S. Eliot considered April the cruelest month. Having lost a close friend last night, I feel like January ranks pretty high in cruelty right now. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #watercolor #create #video ‬#paintingoftheday
‪T.S. Eliot considered April the cruelest month. Having lost a close friend last night, I feel like January ranks pretty high in cruelty right now. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #ink #watercolor #create #video#paintingoftheday
‪Not lucky seven for me since I forgot to post last night! #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video ‬#paintingoftheday
‪Not lucky seven for me since I forgot to post last night! #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video#paintingoftheday
‪Is it a six or a garden hose? Either way, it’s pale and peaceful. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video ‬#paintingoftheday
‪Is it a six or a garden hose? Either way, it’s pale and peaceful. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create #video#paintingoftheday
‪The line between land and sea hidden in the number 4. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create‬ #paintingoftheday
‪The line between land and sea hidden in the number 4. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #cre8 #art #watercolor #create‬ #paintingoftheday
‪And this painting appears to have been in an accident. Probably a result of my binge watching Grey’s Anatomy. #confession #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #art #watercolor #ink #create #video ‬#paintingoftheday
‪And this painting appears to have been in an accident. Probably a result of my binge watching Grey’s Anatomy. #confession #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #art #watercolor #ink #create #video#paintingoftheday
‪Somehow the number looks like a map. Forgot about that bonus painting in the middle of the time lapse. Don’t miss it! #cartography #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #art #watercolor #video #create ‬
‪Somehow the number looks like a map. Forgot about that bonus painting in the middle of the time lapse. Don’t miss it! #cartography #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #art #watercolor #video #create
Started this daily painting series on May 1, 2013, to honor my mother’s memory. Have been posting photo & timelapse to Twitter for two years. Why not Instagram?!? Happy new year, friends. Counting the days in January. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #create #art #watercolor #paintingoftheday
Started this daily painting series on May 1, 2013, to honor my mother’s memory. Have been posting photo & timelapse to Twitter for two years. Why not Instagram?!? Happy new year, friends. Counting the days in January. #letterstomymother #dailypainting #innovate #create #art #watercolor #paintingoftheday
My beautiful mom. No it's not her birthday or any other special day dedicated to celebrate mothers or women (at least I don't think it is, lol) nevertheless, I have something to say to/about her. .
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 These last week's have been so hard for me. The babies have been so sick and I myself have been ill as well. Late/ sleepless nights have become a routine. Tough. That's a word that can describe my situation and also my spirit because I've had to be tough and strong. Just like she's been all of her life. .
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My beautiful mother, motherhood has only allowed me to admire you and respect you more. May God repay you for your constant unconditional love and all of the sleepless nights you spent with me and my siblings. You are so very loved. You are so very admired. .
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#letterstomymother
#iloveyoumom❤️
My beautiful mom. No it's not her birthday or any other special day dedicated to celebrate mothers or women (at least I don't think it is, lol) nevertheless, I have something to say to/about her. . . . . . These last week's have been so hard for me. The babies have been so sick and I myself have been ill as well. Late/ sleepless nights have become a routine. Tough. That's a word that can describe my situation and also my spirit because I've had to be tough and strong. Just like she's been all of her life. . . . My beautiful mother, motherhood has only allowed me to admire you and respect you more. May God repay you for your constant unconditional love and all of the sleepless nights you spent with me and my siblings. You are so very loved. You are so very admired. . . . . . . #letterstomymother #iloveyoumom❤️
I read a quote recently that described grief as love with nowhere to go. A few months ago I felt eaten up by it; the unanswered questions, the love with nowhere to go, the could-have-beens, and the memories. So I started writing to her, my mother. As I kept writing I thought perhaps I should share some of it, some of what it looks like now, five years later. When no one asks you how you’re doing anymore, when people you meet have no idea what happened to you — to her. So here goes...
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I’m writing to you now to try to remember. More than anything I wish you could know that I’m beginning to understand, now that I have a husband and a daughter and a life of my own. A house to keep and a child to raise. A husband to love. The things you so desperately wanted for me. For all of us. I wish you could know I have my own relationship with your God now. That I love Him deeply and fondly and find joy in the Christian faith. I wish you hadn’t last seen me when I just didn’t know, wasn’t sure, if I wanted it. Maybe you do know now. Maybe God told you when I came running back to Him all those years later. I hope He did. If not, I can’t wait to tell you about myself and about my life when I see you again.
I read a quote recently that described grief as love with nowhere to go. A few months ago I felt eaten up by it; the unanswered questions, the love with nowhere to go, the could-have-beens, and the memories. So I started writing to her, my mother. As I kept writing I thought perhaps I should share some of it, some of what it looks like now, five years later. When no one asks you how you’re doing anymore, when people you meet have no idea what happened to you — to her. So here goes... . I’m writing to you now to try to remember. More than anything I wish you could know that I’m beginning to understand, now that I have a husband and a daughter and a life of my own. A house to keep and a child to raise. A husband to love. The things you so desperately wanted for me. For all of us. I wish you could know I have my own relationship with your God now. That I love Him deeply and fondly and find joy in the Christian faith. I wish you hadn’t last seen me when I just didn’t know, wasn’t sure, if I wanted it. Maybe you do know now. Maybe God told you when I came running back to Him all those years later. I hope He did. If not, I can’t wait to tell you about myself and about my life when I see you again.
Woke up with My Mumsy on my mind... it “looks a bit nippy outside”, she’d say for what she’d describe as “a lovely day to take a dog for a walk!” despite having not had a dog for over 20 years!
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Mumsy would recount stories of her childhood years when her and one of her Sisters would go to the park, to crunch leaves or pick conkers.
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It’s also around the time that her joints would get significantly more achy, thanks to her ‘mate’ Arthur (the affectionate name she’d given to the Rheumatoid Arthritis that consumed all of her joints, (including her spine, jaw and particularly her knees).
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Arthur would try to sabotage Mumsy’s plans, but she’d crack-on (pun intended), undeterred from her to-do list in spite of the pain, and always with a smile.
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Thinking of you Ma; it’s your season, and Bee’s Birthday - happy Mother’s Day to you!
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Cyds xxx
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#LettersToMyMother #Reminiscing #Memories #GoneButNotForgotten #BarbaraStewart
Woke up with My Mumsy on my mind... it “looks a bit nippy outside”, she’d say for what she’d describe as “a lovely day to take a dog for a walk!” despite having not had a dog for over 20 years! . Mumsy would recount stories of her childhood years when her and one of her Sisters would go to the park, to crunch leaves or pick conkers. . It’s also around the time that her joints would get significantly more achy, thanks to her ‘mate’ Arthur (the affectionate name she’d given to the Rheumatoid Arthritis that consumed all of her joints, (including her spine, jaw and particularly her knees). . Arthur would try to sabotage Mumsy’s plans, but she’d crack-on (pun intended), undeterred from her to-do list in spite of the pain, and always with a smile. . Thinking of you Ma; it’s your season, and Bee’s Birthday - happy Mother’s Day to you! . Cyds xxx . #LettersToMyMother #Reminiscing #Memories #GoneButNotForgotten #BarbaraStewart
#TBT to when we wrote letters on placemats at diners & BBQ joints ... from when J&I had a #Pioneertown / #GammaGulch cabin (and the actual #PappyandHarriet still owned their palace) ... 🌵✉️🌵
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This from a just-found treasure trove of letters, that my mother kept all these years ... #roadtrips #adventures #highdesert #backintheday #wildwest #diners #bbqjoints #letterstomymother #joshuatree #cali
#TBT to when we wrote letters on placemats at diners & BBQ joints ... from when J&I had a #Pioneertown / #GammaGulch cabin (and the actual #PappyandHarriet still owned their palace) ... 🌵✉️🌵 . This from a just-found treasure trove of letters, that my mother kept all these years ... #roadtrips #adventures #highdesert #backintheday #wildwest #diners #bbqjoints #letterstomymother #joshuatree #cali
What happens now? You know almost all my secrets. Yet sometimes you blame me. Or so it seems. Maybe if I didnt have that piercing, looking at me like I'm a shell of a person. Not whole, but broken and cast away. Silence...oh that silence. How it ripps me into a million pieces so I don't know if I'll ever be whole again. That silence, you use to process, feels like an ocean between us. Waves angrily crashing, skys storming, emptiness consuming. Do you even realize how that silence hurts me? How it hollows me out so that theres nothing inside me. No blood, no heart beat, no pulse. Just empty nothingness. And I know you understand a little. And that's what hurts the most. You understand, but not completely. Although you've been close, it's never happened to you. So you'll never fully know what it feels like to have your home violently broken into and violated. And because its never happened to you, the silence continues, and the blame comes through masked as understanding and compassion.. .

#abusiverelationship #emotionalabuse #toxicrelationship #survivor #letterstomymother
What happens now? You know almost all my secrets. Yet sometimes you blame me. Or so it seems. Maybe if I didnt have that piercing, looking at me like I'm a shell of a person. Not whole, but broken and cast away. Silence...oh that silence. How it ripps me into a million pieces so I don't know if I'll ever be whole again. That silence, you use to process, feels like an ocean between us. Waves angrily crashing, skys storming, emptiness consuming. Do you even realize how that silence hurts me? How it hollows me out so that theres nothing inside me. No blood, no heart beat, no pulse. Just empty nothingness. And I know you understand a little. And that's what hurts the most. You understand, but not completely. Although you've been close, it's never happened to you. So you'll never fully know what it feels like to have your home violently broken into and violated. And because its never happened to you, the silence continues, and the blame comes through masked as understanding and compassion.. . #abusiverelationship #emotionalabuse #toxicrelationship #survivor #letterstomymother
What would happen if I told you? If I told you the truth, and depth of my pain? If I told you how long I've been suffering? How I've had to keep all these secrets, all this pain to myself, how they've eaten me up inside. Would you understand? Would you show compassion to me? Or would you blame me? Blame me for going back. For going back to the abuse. Would you hold me as I cried? Tell me you understand and that we'll get through this together? Or would you give me the silent treatment, cast me away like all the rest and isolate me? What would you do if I told you?...what would you do...for I desperately want to tell you; so you'll finally understand ME.. .

#abusiverelationship #emotionalabuse #toxicrelationship #survivor #letterstomymother
What would happen if I told you? If I told you the truth, and depth of my pain? If I told you how long I've been suffering? How I've had to keep all these secrets, all this pain to myself, how they've eaten me up inside. Would you understand? Would you show compassion to me? Or would you blame me? Blame me for going back. For going back to the abuse. Would you hold me as I cried? Tell me you understand and that we'll get through this together? Or would you give me the silent treatment, cast me away like all the rest and isolate me? What would you do if I told you?...what would you do...for I desperately want to tell you; so you'll finally understand ME.. . #abusiverelationship #emotionalabuse #toxicrelationship #survivor #letterstomymother
At the knees of selfless love I still rock, when the days are long and the nights seem endless, I find peace in knowing I have my mother’s blessings and prayers. From my own experiences I have learned but from my mother’s stories which she openly shares I continue to learn even more. To remain loving and in love when it has been difficult and in time of disappointment, being far apart and understanding life with all its fickleness, I have learned to appreciate my mother’s friendship more than anything in this world. Thank you for your love and from the depth of mine, I hope I make you smile every day! ❤️ #letterstomymother #happybirthdaymama #love #writing #writersofinstagram #theoneiwroteforyou #letters
At the knees of selfless love I still rock, when the days are long and the nights seem endless, I find peace in knowing I have my mother’s blessings and prayers. From my own experiences I have learned but from my mother’s stories which she openly shares I continue to learn even more. To remain loving and in love when it has been difficult and in time of disappointment, being far apart and understanding life with all its fickleness, I have learned to appreciate my mother’s friendship more than anything in this world. Thank you for your love and from the depth of mine, I hope I make you smile every day! ❤️ #letterstomymother #happybirthdaymama #love #writing #writersofinstagram #theoneiwroteforyou #letters
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