It’s my 7th survivor birthday - and that number has never felt so lucky! I don’t know why but 7 years feels like a real milestone to me. In the space of half a year, my mum died of cancer and then I was re-diagnosed, just as my family dared to start to exhale. Then, while enjoying the full “day spa” cancer treatment, we had to flee from, and were displaced by, a forest fire. At that point, I was pretty sure that God was punking me... She can be so edgy that way!
Life changes in an instant... but it’s still pretty great.
So, that Halloween we took advantage of the no hair/kinda care situation and Mikey got rid of the rest of his to match. My brothers had suggested Uncle Fester, to leverage my chemo bloat (tough crowd!). It really was a toss up!
I can’t run up mountains anymore but I can slowly mosey along and that way I notice things like all the wildflowers way more 😍 Of course, I used to purposely hike with slower people, in case of a bear encounter. Very Darwinian. Now I guess I’m the designated dinner! 🏃🏻♀️🐻 🍽
I’ve learned to really live in the moment more. I don’t miss having a title. Certainly not the constant stress. I don’t even really regret cancer, because it opened up a different, meaningful, rich world for me. Just to be clear, unlike Edith Piaf, there are definitely some regrets!
However, it’s a day of gratitude. Starting with my amazing husband @whitb74
, who made/makes me laugh and made/makes me feel beautiful despite the chemo bloat and filleted body. For my amazing family, who mean the world to me. For my incredible, incredible caregivers. For all you amazing friends... For the amazing Bozeman community, who wrapped me up in a virtual big ol’ hug. For the unexpected kindness of strangers.
And lastly, shoutout to the fab and fun @candacenelson
, who happened to be tasting some godawful cupcake on tv, which made me flop on the couch to watch, which made my hand land on a big rock in my chest that wasn’t there just 3 months prior. My sweet friend - she’s an amazing baker AND an indirect lifesaver!
So, ladies, do your breast exams...