name: Asa Yee ๐Ÿ…
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I had a conversation with a friend and colleague @sabralattos where I admitted to being afraid of leaving my apartment. I havenโ€™t told anyone that for 8 full weeks, I have been scared to walk my dog and step foot outside the apartment building because of COVID in Queens, nyc. We drove to a park for a hike upstate once in two months. Even this weekend, we drove three hours to only turn back to the safety of home. Sabra said to me, โ€œI donโ€™t want to be afraid of being sickโ€”thatโ€™s no way to live.โ€ As someone whoโ€™s immune system is compromised, Iโ€™ve thought that doing the most extreme would keep me safest, but itโ€™s only hurt me because of the zero fresh air and zero walking. Being brave and facing my fear head on, by simply going for a walk with my husband and dog, just a few blocks down the road to the waterfront reminded me that living safely, but LIVING โ€” makes a difference. The sun on my face. The pavement beneath my feet, and a rose bush blooming on the side of a crusty old nyc pre-war buildingโ€”all euphoric feelings now that Iโ€™ve missed for a long, long time. Never to be taken for granted by me again. My chest lighter, my mind clearer and my heart full. ๐Ÿค Cheers to friends who call you out.
I had a conversation with a friend and colleague @sabralattos where I admitted to being afraid of leaving my apartment. I havenโ€™t told anyone that for 8 full weeks, I have been scared to walk my dog and step foot outside the apartment building because of COVID in Queens, nyc. We drove to a park for a hike upstate once in two months. Even this weekend, we drove three hours to only turn back to the safety of home. Sabra said to me, โ€œI donโ€™t want to be afraid of being sickโ€”thatโ€™s no way to live.โ€ As someone whoโ€™s immune system is compromised, Iโ€™ve thought that doing the most extreme would keep me safest, but itโ€™s only hurt me because of the zero fresh air and zero walking. Being brave and facing my fear head on, by simply going for a walk with my husband and dog, just a few blocks down the road to the waterfront reminded me that living safely, but LIVING โ€” makes a difference. The sun on my face. The pavement beneath my feet, and a rose bush blooming on the side of a crusty old nyc pre-war buildingโ€”all euphoric feelings now that Iโ€™ve missed for a long, long time. Never to be taken for granted by me again. My chest lighter, my mind clearer and my heart full. ๐Ÿค Cheers to friends who call you out.
My meditation ๐Ÿง˜๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ nook essentials
My meditation ๐Ÿง˜๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ nook essentials
๐˜ผ๐™›๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ง 10 ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ง๐™–๐™ž๐™œ๐™๐™ฉ ๐™š๐™ฅ๐™ž๐™จ๐™ค๐™™๐™š๐™จ ๐™ค๐™› @neverhaveiever ๐™„ ๐™›๐™š๐™ก๐™ฉ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ ๐™š ๐™ข๐™ฎ ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™– ๐™๐™ช๐™จ๐™—๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™œ๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™– ๐™œ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ข๐™ฅ๐™จ๐™š ๐™ค๐™› ๐™ฌ๐™๐™ค ๐™„ ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™จ ๐™œ๐™ง๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ช๐™ฅ ๐™–๐™จ ๐™– ๐™—๐™ง๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™ฃ ๐™œ๐™ž๐™ง๐™ก...
๐™๐™ค๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™ฌ๐™š ๐™˜๐™š๐™ก๐™š๐™—๐™ง๐™–๐™ฉ๐™š ๐™– ๐™ฎ๐™š๐™–๐™ง ๐™ค๐™› ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ข๐™–๐™ง๐™ง๐™ž๐™–๐™œ๐™š.

๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ
I use to think marrying a white man would mean Iโ€™d have to give up a chunk of me.ย The parts where I blast Bollywood music and dance my way out of the shower in a towel like Kajol in DDLJ. My wet hair in harmony with my lip sync. Iโ€™d have to โ€œupdate the spice level of my life accordingly.โ€ย But heย holds his spice better than me. I season with salt/pepper and he overdoses on cumin and chili powder. 
๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ thought Iโ€™d beย able to marry a white man who calls my mom, Amu.ย Who holds my hand in public in front of all the judgemental aunties with pride, instead of shame.ย Who puts on a laal (red) sherwani and smothers his face in holud (turmeric) and wraps my Italian mother-in-law in a sari with the colors of my flag brought to her from the motherland and eat the food handmade by Amu.

๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ thought Iโ€™d have a husband who doesnโ€™t make fun of my broken Bangla. Who can count to 5 proudly in my native tongue.ย Who says Ramadan Mubarak before I even knew what day it was. Who sees that our great love will never be more than my love for my sister.

๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ thought Iโ€™d have a non-Muslim man give up bacon in our home and be open to raising our future children with a few of the rules I grew up with. I donโ€™t know if it was the I Doโ€™s or the merging of our family and friends for one night only, but something shape shifted. It feels different when I call you husband. Itโ€™s not a your family, my family thing. Your culture, my culture. Itโ€™s all one.ย One thing thatโ€™s blurry and confusing and perfectly imperfect. 
๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ thought that I wouldnโ€™t have to explain myself to a non-Bengali partner. He doesnโ€™t look like me on the outside, but heโ€™s the same shade of my insides, my husband. My home. 
๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ thought Iโ€™d change my last name. I hold the name of a Chinese family I have never met, but to me itโ€™s the name of the man that holds my heart. Itโ€™s Bengali, Chinese, Italian and American now.

Reclaiming Yee. The sound and syllable of Us ๐ŸคŽ
๐˜ผ๐™›๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ง 10 ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™ง๐™–๐™ž๐™œ๐™๐™ฉ ๐™š๐™ฅ๐™ž๐™จ๐™ค๐™™๐™š๐™จ ๐™ค๐™› @neverhaveiever ๐™„ ๐™›๐™š๐™ก๐™ฉ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ ๐™š ๐™ข๐™ฎ ๐™๐™–๐™ฅ๐™– ๐™๐™ช๐™จ๐™—๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™œ๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™– ๐™œ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ข๐™ฅ๐™จ๐™š ๐™ค๐™› ๐™ฌ๐™๐™ค ๐™„ ๐™ฌ๐™–๐™จ ๐™œ๐™ง๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ช๐™ฅ ๐™–๐™จ ๐™– ๐™—๐™ง๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™ฃ ๐™œ๐™ž๐™ง๐™ก... ๐™๐™ค๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ ๐™ฌ๐™š ๐™˜๐™š๐™ก๐™š๐™—๐™ง๐™–๐™ฉ๐™š ๐™– ๐™ฎ๐™š๐™–๐™ง ๐™ค๐™› ๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง ๐™ข๐™–๐™ง๐™ง๐™ž๐™–๐™œ๐™š. ๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ I use to think marrying a white man would mean Iโ€™d have to give up a chunk of me.ย The parts where I blast Bollywood music and dance my way out of the shower in a towel like Kajol in DDLJ. My wet hair in harmony with my lip sync. Iโ€™d have to โ€œupdate the spice level of my life accordingly.โ€ย But heย holds his spice better than me. I season with salt/pepper and he overdoses on cumin and chili powder. ๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ thought Iโ€™d beย able to marry a white man who calls my mom, Amu.ย Who holds my hand in public in front of all the judgemental aunties with pride, instead of shame.ย Who puts on a laal (red) sherwani and smothers his face in holud (turmeric) and wraps my Italian mother-in-law in a sari with the colors of my flag brought to her from the motherland and eat the food handmade by Amu. ๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ thought Iโ€™d have a husband who doesnโ€™t make fun of my broken Bangla. Who can count to 5 proudly in my native tongue.ย Who says Ramadan Mubarak before I even knew what day it was. Who sees that our great love will never be more than my love for my sister. ๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ thought Iโ€™d have a non-Muslim man give up bacon in our home and be open to raising our future children with a few of the rules I grew up with. I donโ€™t know if it was the I Doโ€™s or the merging of our family and friends for one night only, but something shape shifted. It feels different when I call you husband. Itโ€™s not a your family, my family thing. Your culture, my culture. Itโ€™s all one.ย One thing thatโ€™s blurry and confusing and perfectly imperfect. ๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ thought that I wouldnโ€™t have to explain myself to a non-Bengali partner. He doesnโ€™t look like me on the outside, but heโ€™s the same shade of my insides, my husband. My home. ๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—›๐—ฎ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ ๐—œ ๐—˜๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ๐—ฟ thought Iโ€™d change my last name. I hold the name of a Chinese family I have never met, but to me itโ€™s the name of the man that holds my heart. Itโ€™s Bengali, Chinese, Italian and American now. Reclaiming Yee. The sound and syllable of Us ๐ŸคŽ
Mentally here ๐ŸŒŠ
Mentally here ๐ŸŒŠ
Quarantine DIY haircut โœ‚๏ธ๐Ÿค™๐Ÿฝ
swipe for the before - a foot longer โžก๏ธโžก๏ธโžก๏ธ
When Iโ€™m going through major change and anxiety the biggest thing I crave is a change in myself to better adapt and cope with the changes in my environment/lifestyle โ€“ both physically and mentally. I know weโ€™re taught to not make sudden drastic changes in emotional times, but for me I find it liberating. Changes we can control and have power over is empowering and makes me feel like Iโ€™m shedding the past to make room for the future. Itโ€™s just hair. I know. But its physically you, your DNA that literally grows from your head, your mind, your thoughts and you can shift your mindset with a snip. Or a couple of them.
Quarantine DIY haircut โœ‚๏ธ๐Ÿค™๐Ÿฝ swipe for the before - a foot longer โžก๏ธโžก๏ธโžก๏ธ When Iโ€™m going through major change and anxiety the biggest thing I crave is a change in myself to better adapt and cope with the changes in my environment/lifestyle โ€“ both physically and mentally. I know weโ€™re taught to not make sudden drastic changes in emotional times, but for me I find it liberating. Changes we can control and have power over is empowering and makes me feel like Iโ€™m shedding the past to make room for the future. Itโ€™s just hair. I know. But its physically you, your DNA that literally grows from your head, your mind, your thoughts and you can shift your mindset with a snip. Or a couple of them.
*sound on ๐Ÿ“ข
*sound on ๐Ÿ“ข
I listen to Bollywood when Iโ€™m feeling down. It always makes me smile ๐Ÿ˜Š Sending good vibes ๐Ÿค™๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿค™๐Ÿฝ๐ŸŒบ
I listen to Bollywood when Iโ€™m feeling down. It always makes me smile ๐Ÿ˜Š Sending good vibes ๐Ÿค™๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿค™๐Ÿฝ๐ŸŒบ
@kosas โœจ
@kosas โœจ
Sharing 7 rituals for ending your WFH day to help declare the end of work mode and shut down mindfully via @ariannahuff @prettybigdealpod ๐Ÿ”‹
Sharing 7 rituals for ending your WFH day to help declare the end of work mode and shut down mindfully via @ariannahuff @prettybigdealpod ๐Ÿ”‹
1/2 lb weighted jump rope + 1 lb @bala bangles ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ’ฆ
1/2 lb weighted jump rope + 1 lb @bala bangles ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ’ฆ
Virtual backdrops, but make it next level โžก๏ธ
Virtual backdrops, but make it next level โžก๏ธ
And why?
And why?
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